my destiny . . . close
The wrenching shift in narrative stance into a present "now" accentuates the difference subtly in play up to this moment between Victor's self-accusations and his actual avowal of culpability. The man talking to his father knows that he is innocent of the crime for which he is languishing in jail. The one speaking in Walton's cabin nearly three years later, in contrast, has locked the key on his own imprisonment.