117. Robert Southey to Grosvenor Charles Bedford, [3 December 1794] *
Bedford — I have been chewing the cud of reflection — my last perhaps was more harshly expressed that it ought or than I intended. forgive me. my disposition is susceptible & I am prone to warmth when the character of a friend is misunderstood. excuse my failings.
short as this letter is — it will please you. my dear fellow I know my last hurt you. indeed it grieves me. God bless you. & if you are harrassed by doubts settle you in the certainty of right. indeed the firm conviction I feel is an impenetrable armour against misery.
to your friends remember me gratefully. & tell them I feel happy in the hope of sometimes seeing them. but — I shall be the leader of a sect — which you will esteem fanatical & seditious. well well. you will pity & love me — & I must pity & love you.